I AM A DISEASE

merry christmas and all that jazz.




i got my old cell phone back.
its exciting and funny @ all the old ass pictures still on there.


my digital camera pretty much sucks cock. [and thats wonderful]

My mom doesnt want me dating my boyfriend. Because hes black...technically half black. She hasnt met him yet and shes already judging him. It breaks my heart to hear this from her, cuz well he IS the love of my life. and we do plan on getting married and staying together forever. It's different, even though we've only been dating for over 3 weeks....yes we are in love. Shes so sterotypical and prejudice...and she doesnt even ask about how i feel. He cares so much for me and makes me feel like im on top of the world like some kind of princess im not. I don't know what to do to change here mind. I'm being very short with her now, i havent spoken much to her since a while ago when she said something to me and the love letter he sent me. it scares me, cuz i dont want anything to come inbetween me and him.

its good to be home finally, even though i was only gone 3 and a half days.
it was good to get away but sad enough i missed home.
and i got to meet my girl amanda, shes so cute.

two days to rest and stuff before school starts back, and my birthday.
i miss my baby soooo much. hes great<3
next weekend though we're going to be together and its going to be the best.
so i got my catalog and im exciting cuz im actually gonna buy stuff from it.
i should get my car pretty soon.

Friday was a waste, didnt do shit.
except talk to my baby, which made it better.

Saturday night i went to see Harry Potter with bff Jessie.
and spent the night, and most of today with her.


...pictures....


jfijio and the others wont work

( mmm BFF time )

jesus needs to come back into my life, im such a bad kid without him.


toooooo much bullshit these days, whatever i cause it i know.
I really do wish freshman wouldnt suffocate the air with it though.
I fucked over some boys too, no one im hated.


so i have a boyfriend...hes miles away in hartsville.
i miss him much
hes pretty fucking amazing and he doesnt look like everyone else.



im going to be at the beach during thanksgiving break i'll be missing alot of things, two parties and my boyfriend. shittttt.

so i skipped school yesterday and missed a test....and in order to make it up i have to have a written note. damn. idk what to do for that.

but theres soo much drama and complicated shit ive decided to give up and not give a fuck anymore.

for the people that i care about ALOT, dont care as much so im just gonna say fuck them.
the fairs coming up and im exciting

IM DANCING THE LAST SUNDAY SO U SHOULD COME WATCH
but im also out of school monday so im going then
and prob. on saturday..this sat. and last.

let me know when you going or if you wanna go w/ me.
the fair makes me excited

im going shopping for a "formal" dress for a wedding
wish me luck. ughgg

ok bitches im back.

SOOO. i like ridgeview. im starting to like it alot.
i still miss my spring valley friends and the school alot.
but im starting to like rv.....hmm who knows.



people deff. try too hard to get attention/ to be liked.
i used to do it myself til im like wow im an idiot look @ myself.
me and sam put on our sunglasses today after school cuz it was blazin hot. and this underclassman looks at us and then digs through her bookbag and puts hers on. i thought it was funny...cuz she had the exact same sunglasses as sam. i know i was a freshman last year but i swear we werent that gay as they are this year. well haa probably i dunno.

the beach was fun....
im glad to be back for the most part
but dreading tommorow.

i feel like im a freshman again since im going to a different school.
im very glad i know a bunch of people there though, im so clueless.
school had deff. snuck up on me this year.
im not prepared @ all.
i dont have a clue what time school starts/ends.
no idea where my classes are or whos in them
and no idea what bus i ride and when it picks me up
and no supplies what so ever.
OH and im not done reading either.


this sucks

IM LEAVING FOR MYRTLE BEACH TOMMOROW FOR A WEEK.
SO LEAVE LOTS OF COMMENTS AND STUFF FOR ME TO COME HOME TO.
<333
BYE

no show for me.
until ummm september.
sorry kids
cant see my boo.


im leaving for myrtle beach on the 31st til the 7th
so you should call me sometime on my cell ((803.530.1718))


MY BABIES SURPISE IS THE 30TH!! AND HE DOESNT KNOW WHAT HES GETTING. HEHE

I AM IN LOVE!!!!!
ISNT IT GREAT.


BUT ANYWAYS.
SO IM LISTENING TO THIS BRAND NEW SONG FROM COHEED AND CAMBRIA.
AND IT KICKS SOO MUCH ASS.

I THINK IM THINKING OF NOT GOING TO THE SECRET LIVE SHOW.
EVEN THOUGH IT'D BE MY LAST ONE CUZ OF SCHOOL N STUFF.
BUT DAMN BO.



SOOOO WHO WANTS A PICTURE OF THEM ON MY LIVEJOURNAL USERINFO.
CUZ I WANT YOU ON IT.

BYE

yeah i really dont know why i got one of these things, just to say i have one i guess...cuz i had blurty LONG time ago, i have myspace which is the shit...now this! and bangme, and yafro, AND yourfacesucks...wow ok. well if ANYONE knows how to make this journal look alot better let me know and i will give you free sex